Far away there in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them, but I can look up and see their beauty, believe in them, and try to follow where they lead.
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What if I have actually done all wrong?What if everything I thought of right is actually wrong?What If I shouldn`t have done what I did?What`s the point on even thinking about it,really?As If I can change something, as if I can make things different.I can`t really remember of serious things I`ve done but I guess there are plenty to come. This is life. But what if I`ve actually hurt someone when I didn`t even mean to, when I didn`t even notice? Isn`t it unfair when you have no idea why are people reacting the way they are? Maybe you were wrong, I get that, but shouldn`t they just tell you what`s the problem.Maybe you can become a better peson maybe you can try and change.But If you just can`t you will always remember that you tried,that you actually tried hard to please them.Personally, I can`t really apologise or say I love you to someone.I know,that`s just me,my odd personality, but I can`t actually change it, I can`t do anything about it. I`m trying to though, I `m trying to become what they want me to be but it doesn`t work. My personality is already formed even if I change it there will always be hesitation on what I should say and especially why. I`ve been hurt by people that I thought of like my friends. I was fooled because I actually gave too much in my friendship and couldn`t see the truth. Maybe that`s the reason I`m that distant right? Maybe experience has shown me that I should always not give too much & be careful.That`s it right? I`m solving my problems when writing..But I actually do have a bunch of great friends right now... :)
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It snowed today too but it didn`t stick.I`m just waitin` for my white day.
Shadyy
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Labels: Apologise, Aspirations, Friends, Hesitation, I love you, Imagination, Shadyy, Snowing, Sunshine, Wrong
