Okay, I know I haven't been on here for like a zillion years but I guess I've had other things to do. Trust me, blogging is awesome but I just can't find the time. Anyways, what I actually wanted to say, is that I'm feeling okay. Not sad, not happy. Just okay. It's one of those times that you know you're going to be okay no matter what. I know I can survive actually. I believe that nothing will make me feel sad, no matter what. And this is why I wanted to finally begin blogging again. Cause even if nobody reads this, I know, that I have done something to give some hope. I mean yeah I'm not the best at school even if I know I can be. I'm not beautiful but I know I am unique. I know that I can do things others can't. I know I can be somebody one day. And that's why I will do my best to be the best I can. Cause, I'll be doing this for myself and not for anyone else. We all deserve the world and even if we can't get it, deep inside we know, we still can. I will probably write here again sooner than you think. I miss it. And something more: I will make it to the top, I will make my dreams true. No matter what.

So many things going on in my life,and having not written for so long makes it really bad. 

But anyways, l will just say my things cause I'm sure you wanna hear. x) So I was thinking before, what is all this with FUCKING chatroulette! I mean it's plain ridiculous how many boys out there have nothing else to do than showing off what they've got and how they take care of it. I mean like, you must be really lame to do such things. But WHAT can I say? They are lame :p I was thinking of actually doing that. haha NO, I DON'T mean showing off my secret places and playing games (xD) but going on the site NOT alone, to just have some fun. :D Okay that sounded mean but hey! I'm a teenager and I can laugh at anything I want. heh (:  Anyways, I was watching this youtube video where some guy actually pretended to be Obama and it was hilarious!I mean most of the people seeing him actually believed it. xD That's a benefit of this site I guess. You can meet  FAMOUS people. That's another reason why you should not continue showing off your talents people out there :0 . Another site I've ADORED is FML, I mean it's absolutely hilarious! I never thought things like those weren't only in the American Movies and actually did happen. I couldn't stop myself from laughing outloud. :D Okay I'm so lame. I know. I mean I'm in the middle of my exams period and I have to admit that I haven't studied for the most of them. That's really lame as I actually should do well but BULLSHIT! I ain't nothing. I have physics on Monday but I can't see myself studying. It's all the computer's fault. Yeap That's it. I can put the blame on the pc ha! But oh well fuck it all. IDK what to do. It's like my life is proceeding on its own without letting meh decide on what i wanna do. What I should really do with my life is really another issue, but the thing is that a whole year has passed and I haven't even noticed. I've sat the ECPE, I'm finishing school in two years, summer is here but I can't see all this. I want a button to slow-motion my life. I don't wanna see myself in 10 years wondering why didn't I do ANYTHING with my life while I could do EVERYTHING? The thing is, I can't keep up with my life, with the whole MEH.What should I do? 0.0

That was rhetorical you moron. o; xD

 I wanna talk about zillion  things but some other time.

P.S.: I love you.

PS2: Eurovision sucked -.-

How could I possibly be drunk.I mean heyy, I just drunk 2 bottles. But why do I feel dizzy? Why Am I being hilarious & hyper again. Yeah that happens even when I haven't drunk anything. haha :D Well Anyway, I've missed most of my worldwide friends and I'm tired of the one's here in Greece. I mean like yeah, I can be the one to actually take part in the decision.Uhh,ohh, well anyways I'm here, I'm there I'm wherever. haha ^^

Special thanks to Kleiw,Gesthimani & Ntina. They know ;P

I am : HOME ALONE till Sunday's night. (yay)

         In love with Bacardi Breezers Watermelon.

         Going to the Subways Concert on Friday.

         Happy :D

         going to sleep with Eleutheria :o

         drawing dinosaurs. haha^^

I'm sick of chocolate. Yeah believe it. I had so much chocolate today that I wanted to actually throw out. I mean it was too chocolate too sweet too EVERYTHING. I won a free dessert on TGI Fridays so I had to go and eat it haha. Yeah since all those stuff happened I went with my Bestie to become really happy & sweet. But It was actually too sweet even for meh. xD And I saw that cutie/hottie. YAY.

I'm doing a sleepoverrrrrr.meow :D

again this night with Ria. YEAH she's lol.

And I was actually made to drink both bottles of

alcohol.haha ^^

Ummm today it was the :

Yeah it's cause I'm not feeling really normal or serious. xD

I have to admit that I'm crazyyy. My hair was good today.

And I took some pictures. :D

I hate it that Weekend is over again.

Long time,no posts.xD Today I went to the planiturium as an excursion.It was fun I must admit,at least we missed Algebra&Geometry,YAY.Not that I don`t like those subjects but cause the teacher is fucking lame.Anyway, I was feeling sleepy all day long.You know how stupid it is when people actually stare because I have blue hair.Hello yeahh now you could stop looking at my hair and being stupid.Its just blue.Anyways,we saw some guys,I mean some HOT guys.Well actually My bestie & I only liked one of them with the greatest face,style&ass(with some purple pants) but Depps liked another one who Fay knew and stuff like that.Pretty complicatinggg.xD The thing was that it was so lol.I mean we were acting like stupid earphones. yeah yeah I know earphones?wtf? I know wht I`m talking about ;). Anyways,my point is that when we went inside to watch that documentary,the seats were like really comfy and stuff,and we were actually lying on them and at some point I closed my eyes.I could feel it,I knew that If I closed them again I would fall asleep.I didn`t though as there was hardly any time left.Yeah we came out we saw that those guys weren`t there anymore (you should see the disappointment on Depps face) and we headed to our bus.God isn`t fair.I mean we are trying to be far away from him and he is always near us.He is not only an ASS-HOLE but he is lame too.Ughhh, life is unfairrr.Anyway,we arrived at school went home and I actually fell asleep.haha^^ I literally need more sleep I mean sleeping late in the night and then sleeping while on day is time wasting so my new thing from today is: Sleep as much as you can during the glorious night ;) The AWESOME thing about today is that we`re going to go to school like 2 hours later cause or teacher will be out.YAY! More Sleep .                        -ShadyyOrchid

&&some new pic of meh ;)

Far away there in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them, but I can look up and see their beauty, believe in them, and try to follow where they lead.

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What if I have actually done all wrong?What if everything I thought of right is actually wrong?What If I shouldn`t have done what I did?What`s the point on even thinking about it,really?As If I can change something, as if I can make things different.I can`t really remember of serious things I`ve done but I guess there are plenty to come. This is life. But what if I`ve actually hurt someone when I didn`t even mean to, when I didn`t even notice? Isn`t it unfair when you have no idea why are people reacting the way they are? Maybe you were wrong, I get that, but shouldn`t they just tell you what`s the problem.Maybe you can become a better peson maybe you can try and change.But If you just can`t you will always remember that you tried,that you actually tried hard to please them.Personally, I can`t really apologise or say I love you to someone.I know,that`s just me,my odd personality, but I can`t actually change it, I can`t do anything about it. I`m trying to though, I `m trying to become what they want me to be but it doesn`t work. My personality is already formed even if I change it there will always be hesitation on what I should say and especially why. I`ve been hurt by people that I thought of like my friends. I was fooled because I actually gave too much in my friendship and couldn`t see the truth. Maybe that`s the reason I`m that distant right? Maybe experience has shown me that I should always not give too much & be careful.That`s it right? I`m solving my problems when writing..But I actually do have a bunch of great friends right now... :)

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It snowed today too but it didn`t stick.I`m just waitin` for my white day.


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Is there anythin` better than being just simple?We all try to be marvelous, gorgeous, beyond any limits but in the end everybody is actually worse that what they were.Trying so hard for something is always worthless especially when it comes on the way you are dressed,put make up and stuff.I`m not simple,that I know.I haven`t actually tried to be simple but I think that simplicity(new georgia's word) is a great achievement, I guess. If you actually choose this part of life everything will be different.I mean just think about it, if we acted simply then the world would be different.But anyways I actually g2g now and get back to my complex,difficult and odd life.My non-simple lifeAnd remember, BEING SIMPLER IS ALWAYS SIMPLE. ;)

-Shadyy